how do we do it?

how do any of us do it?

my wyatt should be turning 2 tomorrow, while his big sister turns 16.

we should be celebrating both but we will only be celebrating one, while holding the other close in our hearts.

my soon to be ex talked of visiting wyatt's spot recently and pulling weeds because they haven't been weed eating. with the pull of those heart strings the day before his birthday, i started to cry...........moments later very quietly he said he was "so sorry"...........aren't we all.

good lord i miss him. my heart hurts and my eyes won't stop tearing up.

what a mess i am.