"A baby is God's opinion that the world should go on."

-Carl Sandburg



really????
that's god's opinion..

what is god's opinion when a baby dies?
this is information i would really like to know

people just don't understand

"It is useless for me to describe to you how terrible they (Violet, Klaus, and even Sunny) felt in the time that followed. If you have ever lost someone very important to you, then you already know how it feels, and if you haven't, you cannot possibly imagine it."
— Lemony Snicket (The Bad Beginning)

it was 20mths. on sat. since i got to hold my baby in my arms for the first and last time. probably explains why i slept all weekend. i miss him. i always will.

it's ironic. this time two years ago i was married and pregnant. today i have no baby to cuddle & no husband to cry to. how have things gone so wrong?

"Sometimes things have to go wrong in order to go right."
— Sherrilyn Kenyon



i am ready for things to go right. they have been wrong for way to long.

"At times the world may seem an unfriendly and sinister place, but believe that there is much more good in it than bad. All you have to do is look hard enough. and what might seem to be a series of unfortunate events may in fact be the first steps of a journey."
— Lemony Snicket 


what do you do if it is not the journey you wanted to take??

"In the end you should always do the right thing even if it's hard."
— Nicholas Sparks (The Last Song)  



occasionally, it is really, really hard.

"We are travelers on a cosmic journey,stardust,swirling and dancing in the eddies and whirlpools of infinity. Life is eternal. We have stopped for a moment to encounter each other, to meet, to love, to share.This is a precious moment. It is a little parenthesis in eternity."
— Paulo Coelho (The Alchemist)

prayers needed!!!!

i don't know if anybody still reads this......
but if you do, would you take a min. to pray.........
or share with a prayer warrior you might know.........
this is a very specific prayer request from mary's mom.......

The dr said she (Mary) has lost 3 to 4 lbs. if she loses 2 more lbs she will need a feeding tube. I (mary's sweet momma) do NOT want that. Please pray for appetite increase.

here is a picture of these two brave and beautiful girls. they need your prayers.

thanks in advance!!!

paula    

Prayers Please!!!!

This is my niece.......

this is some of her story......

This is Mary Keith. She is an 11 year old girl from the White House, Tennessee. She was recently diagnosed with Stage 4 Ewing's Sarcoma and has begun aggressive chemo treatments at Vanderbilt Children's Hospital.

this is something our community is doing for her......

To help support Mary and her family, Think Ink in White House has designed and produced a shirt (pictured in this post) with 100% of the proceeds going to the Keith family. The shirts are $10. Amazingly, the first round of shirts have sold out and more will be available this week. You can place an order by calling Think Ink at 615-672-5847. Thank you for your support and God Bless.

i am not always great at putting things into words. but please keep her and my family in your prayers. obviously this came as a huge shock.  

this is her motto.........

i miss you

When I miss you, sometimes I listen to music or look at pictures of you, not to remind me of you but to make me feel as if I’m with you. It makes me forget the distance and capture you. ♥

Life is a succession of lessons which must be lived to be understood. 
Ralph Waldo Emerson




what are the lessons here???

"Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself to be made a victim. Accept no ones definition of your life; define yourself." {Harvey Fierstein}




trying.....

thoughts for the day.......

"It is not how much we do,      

but how much love we put in the doing." 

- Mother Teresa

People fail to get along because they fear each other; they fear each other because they don't know each other; they don't know each other because they have not communicated with each other. ~Martin Luther King, Jr.

"Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance."

"Pursue some path, however narrow and crooked, in which you can walk with love and reverence." — Henry David Thoreau

20 mths.

wyatt should have been 20mths. yesterday. very few people noticed. his father certainly did 


not. i did. i noticed it in easter baskets, egg hunts, cute clothes, sunshine, and bubbles. i bet


he would have loved it all. especially the bubbles. today i paid my little monkey a visit and


he is ready to monkey around.

i found this piece here http://drjoanne.blogspot.com/2011/07/little-wounding.html a long time ago. i've been meaning to post it but my world got all swirly. but it really spoke to me about pain and loss and the nurturing we need from others. it is a lovely piece.

"I desperately needed aid as my brain felt increasingly scrambled and I lost the sense of space and time. I kept insisting I didn't need aid despite my helpless predicament.
Some insistent, nurturing intervention from caring others put me horizontal
A cool cloth to my head and all the time I needed to reground myself helped me

Then, and only then, the shattering pain lambasted me.

The pain radiated from every nerve cell The pain was literally paralyzing. I could not move. I could not think about anything but the pain. I don't remember much other than the pain.

Slowly, the pain began to ease. I noticed, though, that it would ease, then increase again. Ease, then increase again. This happened quite a lot, and I was mesmerized by this pattern. Very, very gradually, the moment of "unpain" grew longer. The moments of pain, shorter.

The things that were once so effortless and manageable now present significant challenge.

I'm protective of my injury, aware of its constant presence.

And of course, there will be a lifelong scar to remind me...
while physical wounds are quick to heal, the emotional ones are enduring, visible to us, often invisible to others"

go read the whole story here http://drjoanne.blogspot.com/2011/07/little-wounding.html.

just thought i'd share.

Even after all this time the sun never says to the earth, "You owe me!"Look at what happens with a love like that,It lights the whole sky... ~Hafiz

my son & his cousin. 
think they may be talking to angels. 
maybe a few of my own.

Dancing in the Minefields w/lyrics (on screen)

i am sad today.
and a little weepy.

there is no longer a we.....
there is just a me.

i am dancing in the minefields alone.


 "We're dancing in the minefields
We're sailing in the storm
This is harder than we dreamed
But I believe that's what the promise is for
So when I lose my way, find me
When I lose love's chains, bind me
At the end of all my faith, till the end of all my days
When I forget my name, remind me
'Cause we bear the light of the Son of Man
So there's nothing left to fear
So I'll walk with you in the shadowlands
Till the shadows disappear
'Cause he promised not to leave us
And his promises are true
So in the face of all this chaos, baby,
I can dance with you"
~Dancing in the Minefields by Andrew Peterson

"I must say a word about fear. It is life's only true opponent. Only fear can defeat life. It is a clever, treacherous adversary, how well I know. It has no decency, respects no law or convention, shows no mercy. It goes for your weakest spot, which it finds with unnerving ease. It begins in your mind, always ... so you must fight hard to express it. You must fight hard to shine the light of words upon it. Because if you don't, if your fear becomes a wordless darkness that you avoid, perhaps even manage to forget, you open yourself to further attacks of fear because you never truly fought the opponent who defeated you."
— Yann Martel (Life of Pi)

World Autism Awareness Day.

"You know how every now and then, you have a moment where your whole life stretches out ahead of you like a forked road, and even as you choose one gritty path you've got your eyes on the other the whole time, certain that you're making a mistake."
— Jodi Picoult

been having these moments for a couple of months now....
sometime life is hard & pointy, just like those forks in the road.
personally i prefer spoons all rounded with soft edges.
waiting for my spoon in the road.

paula

"There are moments when i wish i could roll back the clock and take all the sadness away, but i have a feeling that if i did, the joy would be gone as well. So i take the memories as they come, accepting them all, letting them guide me whenever i can."
— Nicholas Sparks

"It happens to everyone as they grow up. You find out who you are and what you want, and then you realize that people you've known forever don't see things the way you do. So you keep the wonderful memories, but find yourself moving on."
— Nicholas Sparks