Irony is an implied discrepancy between what is said and what is meant. The use of words to convey the opposite of their literal meaning; a statement or situation where the meaning is contradicted by the appearance or presentation of the idea.
situational irony is a discrepancy between the expected result and actual results.
(definition found at http://www.tnellen.com/)
this popped up earlier on fb.......
Preemies fed donor milk were less likely to develop Necrotizing Enterocolitis (NEC - which kills 40% of babies who have it).
attributed to: A report published by John Hopkins Children's Center
guess who pumped from day 1......
oh yeah....
that would be me!!!
guess whose baby died from NEC.....
that would be me, too!!!
if that isn't irony i don't know what is......
paula
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
another gem
found on fb...
"Grief changes shape but it never ends. People have a misconception that you can deal with it and say, "Its gone and I'm better". They're wrong" -Keanu Reeves
"Grief changes shape but it never ends. People have a misconception that you can deal with it and say, "Its gone and I'm better". They're wrong" -Keanu Reeves
this is a debbie downer post.....if you don't want to hear it, turn back now.
it seems last nights sadness has rolled on over into today. :(
i am no happier today than i was last night.
and then this
which is speaking to so many others
is just pissing me off
i don't want to have the life that is waiting for me
i want the life that i had planned
the life that included all my babies
but right now, especially, the life that included my wyatt
i asked my counselor the other day "how many times can a heart be broken before it is beyond repair"?
i think i may be beyond repair
my body just aches at the sadness and brokenness of it all
i physically hurt almost all the time
when will at least that part of it go away?
debbie downer
aka
paula
dear wyatt, i just miss you so much. there is just no other words. i love you and i can't wait until i get to see you again.
xoxoxo & a family sandwich,
mommy
i am no happier today than i was last night.
and then this
which is speaking to so many others
is just pissing me off
i don't want to have the life that is waiting for me
i want the life that i had planned
the life that included all my babies
but right now, especially, the life that included my wyatt
i asked my counselor the other day "how many times can a heart be broken before it is beyond repair"?
i think i may be beyond repair
my body just aches at the sadness and brokenness of it all
i physically hurt almost all the time
when will at least that part of it go away?
debbie downer
aka
paula
dear wyatt, i just miss you so much. there is just no other words. i love you and i can't wait until i get to see you again.
xoxoxo & a family sandwich,
mommy
Monday, May 2, 2011
late night drivel
up late ..
waiting for my @mbien ..
to kick in...
sad and alone
and wishing more than anything else in this world that i had wyatt to touch, to hold, to nurse, to soothe, to love.
and wanting to know why i can't have that.
and if nothing else why can't i go to sleep.
paula
waiting for my @mbien ..
to kick in...
sad and alone
and wishing more than anything else in this world that i had wyatt to touch, to hold, to nurse, to soothe, to love.
and wanting to know why i can't have that.
and if nothing else why can't i go to sleep.
paula
prayer warriors needed right now!!!
Prayer warriors neede for this sweet family and their little girl, Lucy, right now!
Dear Friends: Need some prayer warriors right now. Lucy has just been admitted to St. Jude for observation. Her sodium levels are too low, potassium too low and generally feels like crap. We had to cancel radiation today and that is not good. She has received a large amount of sodium cholride, but her levels are still not rising. They will be running tests and trying different treatment options tonight. We need this to clear up before tomorrow so that she can have her radiation treatment. We are not in crisis mode by any means, but there is an issue that needs to be resolved. Thank you in advance for your prayers.
lifting Lucy up in prayer right now because no baby should ever be this sick!!
paula
Dear Friends: Need some prayer warriors right now. Lucy has just been admitted to St. Jude for observation. Her sodium levels are too low, potassium too low and generally feels like crap. We had to cancel radiation today and that is not good. She has received a large amount of sodium cholride, but her levels are still not rising. They will be running tests and trying different treatment options tonight. We need this to clear up before tomorrow so that she can have her radiation treatment. We are not in crisis mode by any means, but there is an issue that needs to be resolved. Thank you in advance for your prayers.
lifting Lucy up in prayer right now because no baby should ever be this sick!!
paula
Fast Five
i went and saw Fast Five this weekend with the fam.
you would think that would be a harmless enough movie to go see right? (as far as babyloss goes)
maybe for some, but not for me.
part of the plot line is about someone announcing their pregnancy.
really, in a movie about stealing cars and running from "the law", someone has to announce their pregnant?
and i love these movies. i really do!! why did they have to go and ruin it for me? (can you say self absorbed?)
i was having a great time, looking at all the pretty boys and fast cars, and then WHAM!!! someone announces their pregnant......and they celebrate and raise a glass.
and now i am sad because even though i have been pregnant 7 times, we have never made it a celebration.
the reasons for this are.....
the first time i was still in high school.....
and all the other times we weren't trying and were scared as hell because we had lost the first.
so now in the middle of my happy, mindless movie, i am sad and jealous of a fictional character.
could life get any better???
why yes it can!!
because the happy, hopeful me is still buried somewhere deep inside me and she likes to rear her ugly head and say things like.....
if we have anymore babies we are going to name them dominic and xander after vin diesel characters.......
WHAM!!!! again.......
with the way things are going i have very little hope left....(can you run out of rainbows??? i have already used 2, is there a limit??)
and just so the movie ends on a high note for me (because it is all about me, right??)
i get to sit through the end with my eyes closed because now we have a big pregnant belly on the screen.....
and you see that was my dream this time....
i wanted too much.....
because i wanted it all..
i wanted the belly and belly pictures
i wanted happily ever after
i wanted to bring home a baby to hold in my arms and watch grow
i wanted happiness and all i seem to be left with is a whole bunch of sadness.....
and did my husband reach out and take my hand???
did he ask if i was ok???
did he give me a hug afterwards and tell me he loved me???
nope because i should be over "this"
and the person i use to refer to as my rock, has now gone and squashed me flat.
and just in case i haven't already made this all about me........please pray for us. we are not in a good place right now and neither of us seem to know how to get back to one.
paula
you would think that would be a harmless enough movie to go see right? (as far as babyloss goes)
maybe for some, but not for me.
part of the plot line is about someone announcing their pregnancy.
really, in a movie about stealing cars and running from "the law", someone has to announce their pregnant?
and i love these movies. i really do!! why did they have to go and ruin it for me? (can you say self absorbed?)
i was having a great time, looking at all the pretty boys and fast cars, and then WHAM!!! someone announces their pregnant......and they celebrate and raise a glass.
and now i am sad because even though i have been pregnant 7 times, we have never made it a celebration.
the reasons for this are.....
the first time i was still in high school.....
and all the other times we weren't trying and were scared as hell because we had lost the first.
so now in the middle of my happy, mindless movie, i am sad and jealous of a fictional character.
could life get any better???
why yes it can!!
because the happy, hopeful me is still buried somewhere deep inside me and she likes to rear her ugly head and say things like.....
if we have anymore babies we are going to name them dominic and xander after vin diesel characters.......
WHAM!!!! again.......
with the way things are going i have very little hope left....(can you run out of rainbows??? i have already used 2, is there a limit??)
and just so the movie ends on a high note for me (because it is all about me, right??)
i get to sit through the end with my eyes closed because now we have a big pregnant belly on the screen.....
and you see that was my dream this time....
i wanted too much.....
because i wanted it all..
i wanted the belly and belly pictures
i wanted happily ever after
i wanted to bring home a baby to hold in my arms and watch grow
i wanted happiness and all i seem to be left with is a whole bunch of sadness.....
and did my husband reach out and take my hand???
did he ask if i was ok???
did he give me a hug afterwards and tell me he loved me???
nope because i should be over "this"
and the person i use to refer to as my rock, has now gone and squashed me flat.
and just in case i haven't already made this all about me........please pray for us. we are not in a good place right now and neither of us seem to know how to get back to one.
paula
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