use to believe in (prayers) now i just don't know. prayed so hard that sat. they called and told us something was wrong. prayed the whole way to the hospital that my baby would be ok, that my baby would live. prayed before that, when i was on the way to the hospital after the bleeding started, that me and my baby would be ok. guess what, we are not!!! found a blog that was talking about the power of prayer in a turning out good for that person kind of way. and i have to ask myself, what about the power of my prayers. were they not powerful enough? was my faith not powerful enough? was i yet again not enough? i don't know i am sad and i know if i were praying right now that my faith would not be enough and that makes me sad too. and there are things i would like to say but can't, or won't, or shouldn't. but on another note, the 7 degrees of kevin bacon thing is totally true and creepy and sucks!!!!
paula
I think things along those lines sometimes, too. I spent almost my entire labor in prayer or reading scripture or singing spiritual songs and yet when we got to the hospital they told me my baby was dead.
ReplyDeleteBut I have to believe that our prayers are heard, even if they aren't answered in the way we would like. It's tough to keep hold of faith after losing something so precious as children.
Thinking of you. xx