We must embrace pain and burn it as fuel for our journey.
-Kenji Miyazawa
i found this quote and it made me wonder.........
i must need a lot of fuel. and this journey must be quite the undertaking. because good lord, the pain in my heart does not cease and i wonder if it ever will.
my babes got their report cards yesterday. we had straight A's and A/B honor roll, woohoo!!! momma was so proud.
but.......
that got me wondering.....
i wonder if they have report cards in heaven.....
i wonder how my 16yr. old (mary), my 12yr. old (kendall) , my 6yr. old (chandler) are doing.....i hope they are making mommy proud. and on the same note....
i wonder if there is preschool...
i wonder if my 5yr. old (ethan) is being naughty or just mischievous or if he is a good boy, like his brother is.
i wonder if they have nurseries......
is wyatt getting all the love and attention that (i think) he needs....
i wonder if in heaven if everyone still has their own personalities.....
what would the personalities of all my children be....
i know wyatt already had a few strong personality traits in his short time here and he made them known. :)
i wonder about everyone else.
i think i remember ethan from his ultrasounds and he was pretty playful and rambunctious.
but i was just wondering...........
who knows....
it is funny......
all of a sudden i am wondering if i am spelling "wondering" right. and if i am, isn't it a neat little word.
the wonder of it all......
my babes near and faraway.....
the faraway.....
i wonder....
paula
-Kenji Miyazawa
i found this quote and it made me wonder.........
i must need a lot of fuel. and this journey must be quite the undertaking. because good lord, the pain in my heart does not cease and i wonder if it ever will.
my babes got their report cards yesterday. we had straight A's and A/B honor roll, woohoo!!! momma was so proud.
but.......
that got me wondering.....
i wonder if they have report cards in heaven.....
i wonder how my 16yr. old (mary), my 12yr. old (kendall) , my 6yr. old (chandler) are doing.....i hope they are making mommy proud. and on the same note....
i wonder if there is preschool...
i wonder if my 5yr. old (ethan) is being naughty or just mischievous or if he is a good boy, like his brother is.
i wonder if they have nurseries......
is wyatt getting all the love and attention that (i think) he needs....
i wonder if in heaven if everyone still has their own personalities.....
what would the personalities of all my children be....
i know wyatt already had a few strong personality traits in his short time here and he made them known. :)
i wonder about everyone else.
i think i remember ethan from his ultrasounds and he was pretty playful and rambunctious.
but i was just wondering...........
who knows....
it is funny......
all of a sudden i am wondering if i am spelling "wondering" right. and if i am, isn't it a neat little word.
the wonder of it all......
my babes near and faraway.....
the faraway.....
i wonder....
paula
to all my babes,
mommy misses you all sooooo much. i hope you all know just how much i love you. i hope you have everything you would ever need. and i hope you don't know the want that i have for you. that is something i hope you never have to know. until we are together again....it's family sandwich time. i love and miss you.
xoxo,
mommy
Congrats to your kids on their excellent grades! I wonder about heaven a lot, too. Sometimes I wish I could just get a glimpse...
ReplyDeleteI think about the same things... and often wonder how Gabrielle is doing in heaven and how she will grow up. My heart is with you xoxo
ReplyDeletei definitely think we have our own personalities in heaven!
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