"Sisters, do not pray for tasks equal to your abilities...pray for abilities equal to your tasks." Thomas S. Monson
i need abilities equal to my task. i am wiped out. it is only my second week back at work and it is like trying to walk through water. i am so sluggish and so tired. and i don't think the sleeping pills are helping with the tired feeling but they keep the nightmares at bay, so i don't know which is the lesser of the two evils.
it doesn't help that the 8th is in five days and it will be 7mths. without wyatt. one of the kids in my class has a birthday on the 8th so we talked about the 8th ALLLLL day. sometimes it feels like i am just banging my head against a wall. maybe it is because the world didn't STOP like i wanted it to when wyatt died. why couldn't it have just STOP ed like i wanted it too, just for a little while. just until i was ready to get out and deal with again. a year maybe two that's all i ask. not to much to expect right????
anyway missing my boy and wishing he was here.
paula
love you wyatt.....forever and ever.
mommy
A year would be nice... I am glad the nightmares are at bay, I pretty much have been on a benadryl a night basis to sleep but the bad dreams don't go away
ReplyDeleteNo, not too much to ask at all. I'm sorry it's so rough right now. Thinking of you as you approach another sad milestone. xx
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