some quotes i found that speak to me and why.....

"Grief, a type of sadness that most often occurs when you have lost someone you love, is a sneaky thing, because it can disappear for a long time, and then pop back up when you least expect it."
— Lemony Snicket (The Carnivorous Carnival)

i guess my grief isn't so sneaky just yet, as it is always close at hand. but i did have a bit of a revelation at my counseling session the other day, and that is that through this first year it will just be a month to month thing, because that is how you count in baby time....1 mth., 2mths., ect. but after a year it jumps to 12, 18,& 24, then on to the yearly markers. so its ok that every mth i am sad when the 8th comes and goes because if he were still here that is how i would be counting.

"I have survived. I am here. Confused, screwed up, but here. — Laurie Halse Anderson (Speak)

i feel like i need this tattooed on my forehead.

"Success is going from failure to failure without losing your enthusiasm."
— Abraham Lincoln

and this quote makes me sad....because now i wonder if this isn't what i am doing and will probably continue to do. going from failure to failure.....but some how it leaves me just a little optimistic in that i will probably never loose my enthusiasm for just the thought of bringing a new life into this world. i love my babies and the thought of more babies makes me happy. so i will go on thinking up names for my next child and just hold onto hope. and speaking of HOPE, i found this the other day...

"No one whose hope is in you
will ever be put to shame." Psalm 25:3

"But the eyes of the Lord are on those who fear him,
on those whose hope is in his unfailing love." Psalm 33:18

"We wait in hope for the Lord; he is our help and our shield.
In him our hearts rejoice, for we trust in his holy name.
May your unfailing love rest upon us, O Lord,
even as we put our hope in you." Psalm 33:20-22

"The Lord delights in those who fear him,
who put their hope in his unfailing love." Psalm 147:11

"Hope deferred makes the heart sick,
but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life." Proverbs 13:12

"'For I know the plans I have for you', declares the Lord,
'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give
you hope and a future.'" Jeremiah 29:11

"But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what
he already has? But if we hope for what we do not yet have,
we wait for it patiently." Romans 8:24-25

"Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer."
Romans 12:12

"Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess,
for he who promised is faithful." Hebrews 10:23

"Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of
what we do not see." Hebrews 11:1

all these bible verse on HOPE, i need to print these out and put them somewhere i can see them everyday because i always want to be able to hold onto hope and the promises of god.

paula