Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him and He will do it.

i don't know where to start with this....

i found this bible verse last night and feel like it is trying to tell me something, i just don't know what??

i am pretty sure the desires of my heart have always been to have a large family and stay at home and raise my children. but i have heard it said that with god you have to be specific. so maybe i have been to vague...

maybe what i should have said was i want a big family here on earth because i have a big family we are just in different places. 2 beautiful children here on earth and 5 sweet little angels in heaven. so maybe i wasn't specific enough, dear lord i wanted us all together here on earth alive and well.

and so here goes with a very specific desire of my heart....dear lord i still want more babies and i want them to be healthy and live long fruitful lives. if you want me to be more specific, i want 2 boys(jeremy robert keith jr~j.j.~and charles paul keith~charlie) and i want 2 more girls(lillian katherin keith~lilly and daisy belle keith) and dear lord i want my dream...i want them to be born healthy and i want them to walk on this earth with us as a family for a long, long time and i want them to bury me someday and not the other way around.

lord, i want to be a great mother who gets to nurse her babies and love and hug them. and i want to not have just their memory to hold onto. lord i am grateful for the children you have so freely given to me. but lord these next ones that i am asking for i would like to be able to keep.

amen