dreams

what do you do with the dreams you have. what file do they go under...how in the heck can i delete them. tired (literally and figuratively, they wipe me out) of the drugs that help me not dream because, and this is the best way i can describe it, they make my head feel like a snow globe that has been shaken. but i have to say my life feels kind of like that anyway without the drugs. i just keep wondering where all the pieces are going to fall.


but i digress. p.s. i have adhd, so staying on topic is pretty darn hard. but it does keep me from typing cuss words. so whatever. see i did it again...


dreamed of a perfectly healthy baby being brought to me to nurse last night...now the funny thing about my dreams is that my sweet wyatt can't seem to get any bigger then he was when he was in the hospital. but in my dream my son who is 10, brings him to me too nurse carrying him in one hand and i am so nervous because i am afraid he is going to be suffocated by my HUGE boobs. but i get to hold him and nurse him a bit before i wake up, i did not want to wake up from this one. but it is the first good dream i have had so i will take it. wow i miss him and i miss the dreams i had for us. and i hate it that all i have of him now is dreams.


but at least they are not nightmares, 'cause they really suck!!


paula