snow day

sometimes i feel like such a bad mother, it makes me feel like maybe i didn't deserve my other babies. i know it is a stupid way of thinking, but that is where i am at right now. it is a snow day and we are going to have another one tomorrow and while everyone else is super excited about it. all i can do is sit here and dread it. i just got c-man enrolled back into school and my days alone are where i do all my feeling sorry for myself so i can be a halfway decent mom when they get home. and it works.... i have focused on myself long enough during the day that when they get home i am ready to focus on anyone but me. and now because of stupid snow(i know i sound like a whiny baby) i don't get that time and i am back to not being able to concentrate on anyone and disappointing everyone and feeling guilty about it all.


YEAH snow :(

paula